Finally had time to wrote.

Assalamualaikum and good evening everyone.

Its been a long time since the last time I wrote something here. Finally, I had time to wrote again. I'm pretty busy with home work and class and assignment oh and not to mention, my responsibility as both sister and temporary housewife for this one week starting last Saturday (2nd March). The reason why I became housewife is because my parents and my youngest sister went to Sabah for certain unfinished business to be done. This is not the first time. They had to go there every year on March. But I'm not happy and the reason why is because there are some crisis happen there specifically Lahad Datu. I just wish they'll be fine there. :'( kinda miss them tho. Hmmmmm. What makes me a bit relief is my sister is here and as you all might not know, she stayed in Kuala Terengganu in attending Nursing College there. Alhamdulillah. At least I still have my beloved siblings around me. That's what happen to house and so.

What happen to class? Well, this final semester, I'll be taking 2 subject which is gonna take 2 months to finish and then an internship for 4 months. Class starts on Feb till April and intern will start on April till end of July. Then we're gonna have to stay for maybe a month to settle the internship report. They said that the graduation day will be on December. Well, whenever it is as long as I can get my diploma and get a better job with a better salary. Speaking of that, the 2 subject I'll be focus on this sem is Entrepreneur Studies and French. Well, yes~ I'll be learning French language yaaw ! And that is so exciting since the lecturer that teaches is is very exciting too. Haha. Entrepreneur Studies are not bad too. As long as you're not absent in terms of your mind in class, even if you don't read notes right before exam, you can get through the exam like you've heard it before. No worries. I had mid-term test at 2 earlier and it was fine. Some was wrong I know because I did not really pay attention to class and um, I read notes last minute. Why? Thats my style. Alhamdulillah I've done that every time before exam and I still got good results.

I really want to take my driving license as soon as possible right before my internship but I don't think I can do that hmmmm. What can I do. I'm a full time student tho. Can't hope no more. Such a heart breaking thing to think.

Current fave things:

• Green tea before bed.
• Healthy food.
• Walking.
• Instagram.
• Fibre.

Well, I'm tryin to lose some calories and fat lol. Need to change my eating habit.

Guys, one advice : When you're in relationship and you had  fight with your partner, never ever ever over thinking. It is so self-destructive thing to do. And one more thing, EGO kill you off.

Feels Like Writing

I just wanted to type something here on my blog. Ngehehe. Hello everyone <3 yay !

Okay, its 8.20 pm and its Monday today and I have class tomorrow evening which is the second class of idk what subject but, I was suppose to make a homework about what kind of event I want to do in my project for this subject. But its been a week and I had never done anything. Fark isn't it. Aihh ! What a lazy ass I have. Nevermind, it starts now !

Anyways, I've been watching this cool videos from Youtube which is Laura In The Kitchen and she actually make a lot of yummy recipes ! I would love to make those recipes. One day baby one day !

I'm going to make this this Wednesday because I don't have class that day and I need to buy all the ingredients ;) soooo, will update on Wednesday. See you guys ! <3

My Childhood Love Story

I feel like writing right now even though its late and hell yeah, its already 12am. Dreaming is what I should do now, haha. Anyway, I would just love to share one of my unforgettable moment in my life which is my love story in my childhood. I was born in Tawau Sabah, I grew up there and most of the year, my mom is the one who look after me and my other siblings. My dad had fly to KL and find jobs and earn more money for my family. Sorry guys, if you think I'm bragging around writing things in english, I'm so sorry, I have a lot of friends not only in Malaysia, but some of them is on the other side of the world who don't really understand our language. 

Back to the story, I fall in love with this one guy in my residential area. He's from Philippines and a lot of people who lived in Sabah are actually from Philippines are you aware with that, haha. I was in relationship with him, and hell yeah I was just 8-9 years old at that moment. It was crazy, I know. I don't even know what love is at the moment haha, all I know is I was just a small little girl just like my friends. The whole kampong (village) know that this cute guy is in relationship with me. I have a lot of friends there and whatever he do, they all will tell me whats going on since he's one of the cutest guy who lived there ahahaha. I still remember his name and it was Alaji. What a weird name isn't it. And I always says his name in Spanish language since a Spain Drama Series called Rosalinda was very popular at that time. So what I always says is 'por favor, el amor, Alaji' ahahaha, it was like a rhythm which means 'please, I love you, Alaji'.

Few months we've been dating, I moved. Not far, just maybe less than hundred steps from where I moved. I barely see him since then. I can feel that he's like going far far away from me. I feel lonely. I can still remember the look on his face till today. Even though I moved which is to my grandma house, friends still tell me news about him and there is once where I heard that his father has called him and ask him to go back to Philippines but he didn't want to go back just because he love me and he wanted to stay with me. How sweet is that. But  I didn't get a chance to feel his love when my dad come back from KL few weeks after that and he is actually going to take us to KL. And its been almost 9 years now I have stayed here in KL and I remembered this memories few times a year. Its an unforgettable memories ever.

In 2010, I visited my mom's family in Semporna and my aunt in Tawau, also my uncle's in Tawau too and I didn't see him. I feel a little upset. I wish I can see him again. Really, I really wish. I cried remembering the flashback. Oh God. He must have been married and have children now. Life.

He's my childhood love. I will never forget this memories. 

ALTHOUGH THE AVERAGE BRAIN ONLY WEIGHS 3LBS IT USES 20% OF THE CALORIES WE EAT. TO MAXIMISE THE BENEFITS OF FOOD TO THE BRAIN, THINK ABOUT INCLUDING THE FOLLOWING:

1. FOODS TO BOOST CONCENTRATION – ANYTHING CONTAINING MEGA-3 OILS. FOR EXAMPLE, OILY FISH, WALNUTS, PUMPKIN SEEDS AND FLAX SEEDS.

2. FOODS TO IMPROVE MOOD – ANYTHING THAT’S RICH IN DOPAMINE OR SEROTONIN. FOR EXAMPLE, BEETS, SOYBEANS, ALMONDS, EGGS, MEAT, GRAINS AND DARK CHOCOLATE.

3. FOODS TO BOOST MEMORY – ANYTHING THAT’S RICH IN ACETYLCHOLINE. FOR EXAMPLE, EGGS, LIVER, SOY BEANS, CAULIFLOWER, BROCCOLI AND CABBAGE.

HOWEVER, STRAWBERRIES, RASPBERRIES, BLUEBERRIES, CHERRIES AND TUMERIC (COMMONLY USED IN CURRIES) ARE BELIEVED TO BE THE BEST FOOD OF ALL FOR THE BRAIN. THEY IMPROVE BRAIN PERFORMANCE AND ENHANCE OUR MEMORY. THUS, SINCE RESEARCH CONFIRMS THAT “YOU ARE WHAT YOU EAT” MAKE SURE YOU ARE EATING TO FEED YOUR BRAIN!

 Hey hey hey , updated for June 9th ! Its his birthday ! Gotta celebrate with him next month ! 

I love you Honey ! Forever and Always ! Muahx !

Life.

I don't get it. Why people easily forgot the good things their friends had done to them? I can feel that their cruel to me. I don't want any retaliation. I just want them to appreciate. I do. That's why when bad thing happen between me and them, I'll easily forgive them and never had a revenge on it.


Today, I opened back my mail and I was checking out the email I received from my past lecturer and read them back. I don't get what she was writing about but when I read the email that I send to her then only I understand.


I can see people around me are being selfish. And they also lying to themselves. They think they're position right now is safe from the cruel world. They don't know how the world was. Competition is tough. 


It all start from the beginning of time where your mom and dad had sex. The sperm that burst out from your dad's penis, goes to your mom's vagina when the have orgasm. (I know this is kinda private, so sorry). A million sperm swims off and trying to get to the ovaries and only one sperm can stick to the egg in the ovaries. (If I'm not mistaken). 'Life is a race'. I got this quote from the Bollywood movie named 3 I idiots.


Life is a race. If you don't run fast nor being careless, you'll left behind. But you can still run even thought you're far behind. So don't give up. People all around you is trying to compete with their friends. Why are you still here ? You should follow them compete each other. But my lecturer had taught me to compete with yourself not with others.


I have this classmate who had tell everyone around her that 'learn, learn together, but successful is individually'. I'm not sure if I had to agree with this quote nor not. Failure is success if we learn from it.


So appreciate all the good things that happen around you, when your friends had taught you this and that and life is too short. So enjoy it, forgive the past and do your best for the future. You've learn from the past so you will never make the same mistake again. Live your life with smiles and happiness. No need to be pissed of or depressed with someone's word.


But I'm different. I was grown in a family that  don't speak words that are cruel or do things that is bad. We don't practice that. We forgive, we give love and we can't see things that is cruel. Again, I grown as a good person. My family is poor. My parents had taught me to be good. The religion of Islam makes it even better. I can't face people who talk or do bad things that might hurt someone's feeling. I don't ignore people because I know how they'd feel when I'm ignored. I don't shout / angry /  depressed in front of people because I want to take a good care of my reputation and because I want to be a good example to others. I don't say word that only foolish egoistic people would say because because it might hurt their feelings like 'do I look like I care?' etc. I never break rules because I'm scared with the law that I had set to myself and the law of Allah.


Less is more. Talking to much might actually make people hate you. So I should stop now. And one last thing;


It's our nature. Human beings like success but they hate successful people.

Assalamualaikum, hi guys. 


Haven't update for so long. So here I am, healthy and getting healthier than ever. I'm fat already. I guess is 3 kgs more than before. Wow, I gain a lot. Why ? I ate chocolate everyday ! That's like 4 bars of Kitkat everyday. What the heck is that! Now I'm a little bit concern about my weight and body. I feel like I can't wear all the shits in my closets. I look fat wearing them. Crap ! 


Ok, there is something I want to share with you guys. Another funny moment of my life. I woke up late today since my mom didn't sell nasi lemak and I don't need to wake up early. Later then, I iron my pink shirt, white hijab and my green-creamy pants. After that, once I finish, I feel like I want to have a period. I was screaming and shout to say 'No ! Not today ! I'm late !' and then I got off to the bus stop. Freaking horrified. I feel like I'm really going to have period. Shit crap. Do I have to go back and put the pantyliner on ? No way ! Its damn late already. So I just wait for the bus. It was like 15 minutes.


Later then, the bus came. I got onto it and I sit at the back. I read my novel and I don't know why, that freaking feeling come again. I'm like, fuck ! I'm in trouble. I can't even read my novel. I took of my purse and look for the movie ticket of the Avengers. I want to see the date. It was a few days after my period. It was 9 ! Ok ! This makes me panic even more ! I sit there but I lift my weight. I didn't sit properly. I'm scared that the blood might got onto my pants. So then, when I arrived at the LRT station, I got off as fast as I can and I covered my back with my bagpack and my front with my novel and water bottle. I got upstairs using elevator and I punch my card as fast as I can. I run to the washroom and then I do my work there. It wasn't even any blood. 


What the fuck just got onto me. I was worried the whole time, scared that I'm having a period today, but I'm not. What the heck. Ahahahaha. Funny isn't it ? I know is kinda personal to tell. But I just want to share how I feel when this kinda thing happen. Its like ADRENALIN RUSH !